LANY Is Coming To Cebu Philippines And I Am Not Okay
I am not okay because since December 2019, everything seems so frustrating. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. You might think I am a pessimist. Well that’s half true.
Why is it frustrating amidst Christmas and vacation? Well, simply because our province had again been hit by a very strong typhoon and it made me reminisce the past typhoon that destroyed our house. It made me reminisce that my family experienced it firsthand and I was in luck because I was in Cebu at the time of the tragedy. It made me realize that they were so traumatized by the situation and I did not know how to help them.
It made me feel useless in some ways. It made me feel sad.
Then, here comes new year, January of the year 2020.
First, break-up of famous people. Call me anything you want but reading news about break-ups are a big deal to me even if I am not their fan. Second, Eruption of Volcanoes not just in the Philippines but in some parts of the world. Lastly, doutbreak of 2019 Novel Coronavirus .
It is February 1st as of the writing and it feels like I am in June because of the many things that happened continuously without a warning.
I have been seeing post that says, “I am starting all over in February”, “January is a trial month of this year so Happy New Year February”, ” January is cancelled” , “Happy New Year y’all, January ain’t counted”.
I am not okay because I am afraid to go to the concert grounds.
I am afraid to go to the concert because of the virus. It might be spread in the venue. Due to its large crowd, that is unavoidable. Panic and stampede may arise. I am afraid that I might get infected and die. Hey, no worries because my ticket is general admission (haha! me being sarcastic). But still, my mind says no and my heart says yes. It is a battle in my innermost self. I still have a day left to decide.
But before I decide, I wanna share with you some things. I have been listening to his music over and over again. I am not his avid fan. His musics are so relatable and he is a very talented young man. Plus, he is super cute (excuse me for gushing). He is my go to jam when I am sad or not.
My favorite song of his is ILYSB, 13, the breakup, I dont wanna love you anymore, like you lots and I think it is almost all. I can’t really decide now that I typed it one by one by one.
If I will attend this one, this will be the first concert of a certain band that I have attended to that is not 2NE1. 2NE1 was and still is my number 1 band.
I am not okay because I can’t decide if I should stay or I should let go. But, I lift it all up to God.
See you or see you not.
